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Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Mindblown

I
read
the
SEQUEL
withoutreadingthefirstbook.

IFEELSOSTOOFED!!!!

And I just found out just now and I read the book at like, 2 years ago. Shiz

#ILoveThe ♫♪

#ILoveThe newest Ed Sheeran album! The songs Tenerife Sea and Photograph are mah faves and One with Don't are closely behind. :)

"You can keep me in the pocket of your ripped jeans."

This line hit me most. Sometimes I want to leave impressions on people. I may not give the best advice, make the best jokes or do the best things, I want to to be able to be God's messenger, in a way. I want everyone to be comforted through the things I say and things I do which are not really by me. They are a way God has made possible to communicate with family, friends and everyone I encounter everyday.

All About Me: 20 Things You Don't Care About But I Want You To Know About (hahaha, so pretentious)


1.Hadlok kog kidlat ug dalugdog
2.Usahay feel nako ma-shy ug muhilom
3.I try to like every music genre from every language
4.I like to collect things (stationeries, Yu-Gi-Oh cards, quotes)
5.Ang likod sa akong cabinet puno ug pictures of the things I lablab
6.Most of the things I have are gifts esp. mga posters and cute stuff
7.I like statement shirts
8.I need my handkerchief. Very much
9.My first crush was Rico Yan 
10.Adventurous ko when it comes to the books I read
11.Curiousity kills me everytime
12.J-Pop will always be my bias 13.Naa na koy bucket list for my future everything
14.I so love jud bodies of water. Kung naay mountain with the view, bai.. HEAVEN!
15.Gusto ko mukanta ug musayaw in private hahaha
16.Okinawa, Olivia Lufkin, BIGBANG, The 1975 are my somedays 
17.I hated the word tea pa lang so much but Chingkee Tea is my first tea love. Very affordable kaayo. Perfect jud kaayo ang Oreo with Choco Pudding!!!
18.Ako ra ang Instik na dili ga kaon ug siomai ug pancit. Dili pa jud kabalo musturya ug mugamit chopsticks. Pakaulaw wahaha!
19.My T stands for Tang (not Tan, you racists hahaha)
20.I started recognizing God personally atong Grade 5 ko 


Slumbook extras --

Fave movie everrr: Tokyo Girl
Fave OST everr: Moon River

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Buckets and Buckets of Blessings

Another one of the things from my bucket list has been fulfilled today (September 2, 2014) and that is (Tantananan!) I got to be an altar server todaaaaaaaaaay :DD

I really gave up hope on being a server ever since I never got to serve during the 7 A.M. masses at my high school alma mater, Kong Hua School. They usually didn't allow girls to serve at any other masses so I was a bit down. But at the end of our Senior's Retreat I was so, so, so surprised and thankful that God gave me another oppportunity like this ^____________^

And I'm just gonna add this "I never thought I'd see any concerts ever in my lifetime but I got to watch 3 in one month" post :))))

Miracles do happen and they sometimes happen for free :))

1. WonderfulMindaNOW event with Sarah G., Updharma Down and Spongecola (Yael, bakit ngayon ka lang?)

2. KZ Tandingan, TJ Monterde and Kedebon Colim special session for the Le Maste "after-party"

3. TM's Parokya ni Edgar and Daybreak sesh :)))))))))

LOVE LOVE LOVE! GOD IS GOOD! SO SO GOOD!

Saturday, August 30, 2014

On A Positive Note

Yes my negativity has been on level High this week but I just wanted to give some happy insights :)) ^_^

God gave me the best friends. There were a lot of times when they supported me even without me mentioning anything. All those times I didn't know what to do, my friends would know EXACTLY how to fix the problem. I know God really gave us extraordinary chances and experiences and I love all my friends so much for being my support group <3 p="">
I don't have to wait but I have to act when I can. Many times we can't keep on relying on others so we have to ask God to help us make it happen! :)

I've done a lot of poor work and outputs and I have to learn from them. I have to stop thinking, "Oh this is taking up too much time and effort and it doesn't deserve my quality work." But where's the Magis in that? :( I feel really bad that I had to do all that work when I was in a very stressful time. I didn't get all the info. I needed on time and I just got all pressured and scared and defeated and really just got caught in a low self-esteem moment.

I have to give God my time of day coz He know I need Him so much. I have to rest and stop overthinking and just believe in Him. <3 p="">

Coming Full Circle

I've never seen the country nor done any Christian pilgrimage in the Philippines but you know my dream has always been to go and experience all of Japan. I saw an episode of Cool Japan about the Ohenrou/

Shikoku Pilgrimage

and I really wanted to try it out!

My grandpops was a Buddhist and seeing the show made me want to kind of visit the temples of Japan, all 88 of them (40 days of walking). I wonder if God would be okay with that? I'm sure he would be coz I would be getting one moe thngs off my bucket list as well as experiencing the lives of the people going through the pilgrimage and those helping out pilgrims.

What's more amazing about this is that it is the only one in the world where you go back to where you begun in the very end, you come full circle - back to the very first temple you started at. It just makes me think of how great it would be to accomplish something as big as this, even just sightseeing and not really praying to Kukai. I would love to reflect on my life and journey through Japan. Just thinking about it makes me want to graduate and save up ASAP! :))

Friday, August 29, 2014

On Point

I'm now streaming Pretty Little Liars and Mona said this, "Have you ever been so focused on something that it takes over everything and it turns you into something you're not?"

Yes and senior year just got hectic. I've never thought of doing these things but now I did all these things and I hate it, hate it, HATE IIIT! >.< :
1. Give other people task I could've done by myself.
2. Do mediocre work on anything at all.
3. Judge everyone and every little thing.
4. Be so impatient and cranky all the time.
5. Complain about every single detail.
6. Putting myself down and not stopping to look to God for help.
7. Being too lazy to make time for a full, heartfelt prayer.
8. Not stopping by the chapel everytime I arrive at school.

How could I have changed so much for the bad? I am so sorry to everyone I've offended these past few days. Pressure is NOT an excuse and I will do better, I will keep trying. ^^

Thursday, August 28, 2014

A Letter to the Lord

Lord God,
I know I'm being very weak when all you've shown me is kindness but I can't help but worry. Especially when working with others I feel like they lean on me when we should all lean on You. I admit that some of the good values you've blessed me with has changed ever since I've realized that some people might abuse what kindness You have shown. Lord, I really want to be strong and to be the kindest I can be. Lord show me that everything is going to be fine and help me see the good in everyone. Help me never to change the good parts of me that I sometimes lose sight of in times of stress, anger, impatience, paranoia and most of all during times of sadness. I will always look to You, Lord.

I love you always and forever.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Future Family

Hey it's me again and I finally got to catching up with this baby reality show I'm watching (I'm in 35/38 so push natin to!)

I keep realizing that a lot of the show's parents regret having their babies later in life. I keep feeling their disappointments just thinking of how much older they will be once their kids grow up to do their hobbies. I even cried together with the twins' dad that one episode. T_T

Also, this one pretty cutey patootie has some moments with her grandad. My sister never met ours and I never got to see them when I was already mature enough to know so I cried when those parts were showed, too.

I'm getting so emotional but I love realizing that even with all my doubts about dating and marriage and having kids that maybe I would want that happy family, too someday <3 p="">

Monday, August 25, 2014

Disappointments

I'm changing. But I'm not blaming anyone or anything. I'm just sad about losing the good stuff.

Realizing that:
People will salig, sa imo and not God, is the wrong kind of "trusting"
That saying "I will help you with that" may mean you have to do EVERYTHING
That I've been told of my nega. sides and I caouldn't change them as easily as I thought :(

On a side note, I want a tattoo. On my wrist. Of 2 words that mean a lot to me or of song lyrics. It's kind of a sin tho (hmm..)
(c) Google and Tumblr

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Bookies, Goodreads

Some books that I loved so much:

Who would be my 5? Would my heaven be the beach, too? Would I cry like I did after reading, knowing and feeling what the 5 most important people in my life had gone through because of me?


So many memories with my sister after reading this book. We even named our teddy bear, Bearemiah ;))


Such a unique story! I loved the book so much. I think I read this one the fastest.


All my heart's pieces just broke. I cried so much. I felt like I was the girl who hopelessly and blindly followed my heart and it just led me to the wrong direction.


A book with heart and a soundtrack to boot! I love the empathy it gave out and of course, the hard work of both the author and the musician, BRAVO!


I never thought I'd say this but, I struggle with the same teen problems as the books of this series. Temptations, curiosity and everything in between made me realize that no, I am so not alone!

Judging A Song by Its Title

"Please Don't Say You Love Me" by Gabrielle Aplin ♫

1st reaction: How superficial and feelingera can this person get by saying this to someone. It could really hurt a person.. blah, blah.

After listening carefully: Wow, the lyrics are so wonderfully said. Finally I understood the message, that sometimes  love is so rushed that we can't pause it. We live in the very moment when we love, fall in love or are loving. "I might not say it back." She didn't mean it the way a person usually does. She just means that she can fall for the guys and maybe she is starting to fall but she's not sure if its love.. yet.

Just some random thoughts :)

Friday, August 22, 2014

BUCKET LIST CHECK!

LORD GOD THANK YOU FOR ALL THIS WOULD NEVER BE POSSIBLE WITHOUT YOU!

Fireflies, played my first evah game of b-ball, got carried around (lol sorry sa heavyweight champness of mine) @ JMA-BOLTS in Bukidnon



K-Pop feelingera by cooking gogi :3


Last summer while going to Puerto to train our Stitches & Knots laborers, I GOT TO FINALLY SEE MACAHALAR BAAAAAAAAAY! SO awesooome. And that was while riding a motorcycle/ habalhabal. *bow*







In current time (CHAR hangover sa Finance yesterday, Present Value), its August and so far I've visited 2 infinity pools and saw the best ever view of the Cagayan River. Booyah!



LKKS Luxe Hotel










Stargate Dream Vacay Resort



Medj Overwhelmed

GUSTO KO MUHILAK!! :((

Lord, the road's just been too long but I hope I can hold on. It's so hard and I just got a lot on my mind pero thank you Lord na I'm here, still here and still great! :)

My dream's just within my reach najud! HAPIT NA LORD! Na-realize lang nako na dili nako ma-explain this feeling na happy/sad/bothered/angry.tired/heartbroken/ ETC. !!

LONG LIVE MY DREAMS! #Okinawa #Japan HAPPINESS AND SUCCESS <3 god="" lord="" p="" po="" salamat="">

Thursday, August 21, 2014

A.D.T.O.Y.

Why, oh why. ^ All Day i Think Of You...

At 2PM (lol punpunpun). JK.

It's the times when you are left alone when you think of someone most. I never really got that. I mean I heard it and I kind of understood it but never really felt it.

Now I know. It's good coz you have that time to think but it just hurts so much sometime, ya know? :(

You just hope that person's thinking of you to kay na! Bes sakit. KAAYO.

Unfair

UNFAIR, IT'S SO UNFAIR THAT

People in MNL get to see Emi and Takeru and the cast of Samurai freakin' X huhuhu.

I cried coz I didn't get to see BB and other K-Pop acts and NOW I HAVE TO CRY ABOUT JAPAN, TOO!?!?! Not cool.

COOL JA NAI :((((

Gilas = Puso

I get so intense during b-ball seasons. I feel like my life is on the line. HAHAHA.

Let's all support Laree Fonasiyey (hahaha foreigners lol) and the PH team. I'm so so very excited najud! Even if we don't win any game AT ALL (OMG ka bad), the thrill was so worth it. Proud to say I didn't miss any of their FIBA Asia games <3 div="">

Diclaimer: Forgive me for any over-posting on social media. I just get too attached :)

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

All I Want is to be a Turtle


Whenever I see even just a glimpse of the water, I feel so happy!!!

I felt so satisfied these past few days coz I saw some water in Laguindingan Airport while fetching some guests from Le Maste. I felt bad that I didn't enjoy riding past Opol so much coz it was so pretty but meh I was so tired. XD

Oh and I don't have any pics but driving past Macahalar Bay in a motorcycle, MUSIC VIDEO MOMENT! Hahaha.

An of course walking from XU and back and passing by Carmen Bridge, getting assigned for the House of Hope for our Religious Studies subject, I get to see the Cagayan River evertime I come in for duty. >w<

Then walking with my parents at the bridge every morning last summer (even with all the usok and traffic, I had some music video moments).

SOOO NOW. I am so going to Okinawa, no doubt about it! Lord, may you help me coz I am so excited for Japan. Soon, soon, hopefully sooooooooooon!

My Branding is HAPPY

I saw this on Pinterest and I just wanted to share it :)

And then here's my official signature (lol)


This is the signature I made since I was in Grade 3 and I just realized how well it fit with the image I want to give out, HAPPY. I just wanna thank God again for another blessing. It may seem like a small thing but it made me feel secure coz people have been telling me I've been "too happy." But now I know that God made me a happy person from the very start and I should share that with the world. ^__________^

"Is it the same for you?"

You know how when you like a guys and then you hate this one tiny thing about him and it puts you off?

Well I love this band, The 1975. Every song's lyrics are just made so good, it speaks so much about how a teen/young gens. feel about getting high (not necessarily drugs, tho Matty says so); about love (not so much sex) and about being in love, love, looove. My sister and I sing their songs on loop almost everyday even tho the lyrics are PG (oops). ♫

So there's one song and this one song is called Antichrist. Do you kind of get me now?


I have nothing against non-believers its just that I felt so sad listening to this song. It's Matthew who wrote it and he's the band's lead singer. If you listen to the lyrics, you can hear him questioning God and how impossible He is and the things He did.

The part where he sings, "Is it the same for you?" well I got myself wondering and realizing, too. I realized that I was a faithful and a Church-goer but I question God, too. I feel like the non-believers have it so much harder coz they don't even try to speak to God, they never reach out and pull their strength from him.

This one song didn't make me hate The 1975. It made me realize that people need some kind of assurance and with God we have faith. But they can't see that, God doesn't speak through human ways. He's different and I want so bad to give whatever I can and help spread God's Good News coz honestly without it, I would've given up a long time ago.

Lyla Tov

I will never forget the day I had my poem published.

Writing is one hobby that gets me so fulfilled and it just took one book to inspire me and immerse me into the lives of teen Israeli soldiers.

Chick-Lit? I say not! :) https://www.goodreads.com/series/42639-how-to-ruin

Realizations soon to be Real

Hello! It's been a while and I've been a busy Jilly so I'm glad I got some "inspiration" to write and share this. I'm really actually never thought about this before but.. I'm going to submit some photos I've taken and I actually really love taking pictures of nature.

You see, I have the worst camera ever which is my phone's low quality cam because I am really one of the most stingy/inot person on earth. A person told me once that maybe I should be a photographer but I  just laughed it off coz I could never, ever, ever afford a DSLR/very great Q cam. But I really do want to share how I felt when I saw the things I saw and places I visited so Imma share it with you guys :)))


This one was taken during one of my morning walks with my mom. I really did enjoy walking but I hated the raffic and usok-usok that came with it :/ This shot was so different from those smoke belching cars X)




Never thought I would but these shots were taken when I went to Malitbog, Bukidnon. AMAZING GOD KA TALAGA LORD! Wala jud ko nagdahom na maka-adto didto with my first org. na I felt so much belongingness, ang STREAMS (tho I didn't do much for them :( ). I was always asking myself, "When will I ever set foot in Bukidnon." and then boom! Been there, experienced that. It was for free, too and I met such great, committed friends.


I don't remember when this was coz I was just too happy to cross off "Flying my own lantern" off my bucket list. :) HAPPY LANG


This was shot in Puerto where our company went to teach our potential laborers for our friendship bracelets. I was so shocked that such an amazing kubo could be built and I felt so bad it was so far from the city and that people couldn't see its beauty for themselves. The view of Macahalar Bay? AWESOME. Just, breathtaking. Habal-habal is the way to go! :)

Friday, April 4, 2014

HIMYM: How I Met Your Mother, How She Died and I Ended Up With Your Aunt Robin

Or "How To Ruin 9 Years of Character Development in 40 Minutes"

I know many of the fans felt so bamboozled with the ending and I felt torn. It was reality: people get divorced, don't get to have their dream jobs and be happy, people move on and die . WOW. But with how the show painted the cast, the surroundings, I was SO expecting a happy ending. And I really hope so since Time mag tells us of possibilities of an alternate ending. A HAPPY one at that. Hallelujah! -->
http://time.com/50456/how-i-met-your-mother-happy-ending/

" Chasing dreams, man it's harder than it seems..."

Best. Dream. Ever.

I have been obsessing ever since they came to the Philippines (Manila to be exact, sucky but true) and finally I got my wish.

There were only a few people watching the 1975 play their first song (titled --in my dream-- My Confessions, Over My Head, Cable Cars by the Fray Illicit Remix: Don't bother asking me why coz it sounded like Pop Goes Rock haha) and I was there front & center with my sis. GAAAAAAAAAAH! I remember feeling all sad asking why no one was watching the most awesomest band I know but I was so happy to have them to myself (and the few others with me). They then played an acoustic version of Settle Down (which sounded like a cover I downloaded from Youtube) and then finally it was them playing their most emotional song --- Sex. AND THEN MATTY WAS BESIDE ME GIVING ME A SIDE SMILE AND SHY WAVE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH.

So that's how I had the best dream ever and woke up. <3 p="">

Friday, March 28, 2014

From Blank to Filled Pages

It's March going on April and who can believe time has passed us by so very fast?

I'm missing out on a lot. The 1975, 2NE1 AON, MAMA in the PH (possibly), summer, summer jobs, etc. All I can do is wait for my graduation day & I can (probably) take on the world!!!

I'm realizing a lot of things, too. Family is the main focus of my realizations as I am currently watching "The Return of Superman" (ep. 9 and it makes me think twice about having babies -- yes, yes, not now but in the future -_-)

I cannot express all that I'm feeling and I have felt this first quarter of 2014 but I hope you can grasp at least an ounce of it through this blog post (I know I'm being lazy)

PS I have my own wall to post my Bigbang, anime, etc. stuff now but its honestly too small to post all my stuff so I hope I'll be happy, successful, buying my own house soon enough (lol maybe not quite soon) and I really wanna get thinner & pretty but I'm happy like this :)) (except for the times ppl mention my fatness, which isn't so obvious at all -- duh I'm being sarcastic)

That's all for now! ~

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Turn that Frown Upside ":D"own

HAPPY 2014!!!

God has been giving or country some tough trials, I know. But bilib jud ko sa Pinoy, we are ever-faithful. :D
I admit my family was not as lively this Christmas. We didn't put up any decors or lights. We didn't put up our Christmas tree. I decided to respect my mom's decision. We went through a hard time with Sendong. Still, we went to mass and celebrated. I felt really bad about that one little detail, though. I kinda felt guilty. I hope (and know) He'll understand.
Just this week, (yesterday, to be exact) while the storm was a'ragin', our classes weren't suspended & I heard some teachers talking about how their salary would be deducted if they didn't have class. I really was offended. While I received frantic texts from my family, they could care less. If I didn't have an exam scheduled that day (which got cancelled, shame) I wouldn't have gone to school and helped in packing clothes and putting things up the higher place (my parents can't carry heavy stuff, but they did 'coz I was at school, go figure). Then again, the Lord kept us safe from flood waters.
How ironic that I love the beach, the sea and the sun, the sound of water flowing so much but I'd never, ever love the flood that they cause.

On the lighter side, I was so busy this year keeping up with K-Pop year-end shows and streaming as well as awards season for Hollywood (Yay, Grammy's on Monday!)
And you know what, my poems are going to be published!! YAY!! I hope I win that writing contest, too. :))) I never even thought I'd get qualified. The Lord is giving me another energy-booster. :DD

There's so much to look forward to, so much to be grateful about. Lord, I am so sorry for being gloomy and nega (especially with exams) and thank you so much for always being there and keeping me strong! <3 p="">