On A Positive Note

Yes my negativity has been on level High this week but I just wanted to give some happy insights :)) ^_^

God gave me the best friends. There were a lot of times when they supported me even without me mentioning anything. All those times I didn't know what to do, my friends would know EXACTLY how to fix the problem. I know God really gave us extraordinary chances and experiences and I love all my friends so much for being my support group <3 p="">
I don't have to wait but I have to act when I can. Many times we can't keep on relying on others so we have to ask God to help us make it happen! :)

I've done a lot of poor work and outputs and I have to learn from them. I have to stop thinking, "Oh this is taking up too much time and effort and it doesn't deserve my quality work." But where's the Magis in that? :( I feel really bad that I had to do all that work when I was in a very stressful time. I didn't get all the info. I needed on time and I just got all pressured and scared and defeated and really just got caught in a low self-esteem moment.

I have to give God my time of day coz He know I need Him so much. I have to rest and stop overthinking and just believe in Him. <3 p="">

Coming Full Circle

I've never seen the country nor done any Christian pilgrimage in the Philippines but you know my dream has always been to go and experience all of Japan. I saw an episode of Cool Japan about the Ohenrou/

Shikoku Pilgrimage

and I really wanted to try it out!

My grandpops was a Buddhist and seeing the show made me want to kind of visit the temples of Japan, all 88 of them (40 days of walking). I wonder if God would be okay with that? I'm sure he would be coz I would be getting one moe thngs off my bucket list as well as experiencing the lives of the people going through the pilgrimage and those helping out pilgrims.

What's more amazing about this is that it is the only one in the world where you go back to where you begun in the very end, you come full circle - back to the very first temple you started at. It just makes me think of how great it would be to accomplish something as big as this, even just sightseeing and not really praying to Kukai. I would love to reflect on my life and journey through Japan. Just thinking about it makes me want to graduate and save up ASAP! :))

On Point

I'm now streaming Pretty Little Liars and Mona said this, "Have you ever been so focused on something that it takes over everything and it turns you into something you're not?"

Yes and senior year just got hectic. I've never thought of doing these things but now I did all these things and I hate it, hate it, HATE IIIT! >.< :
1. Give other people task I could've done by myself.
2. Do mediocre work on anything at all.
3. Judge everyone and every little thing.
4. Be so impatient and cranky all the time.
5. Complain about every single detail.
6. Putting myself down and not stopping to look to God for help.
7. Being too lazy to make time for a full, heartfelt prayer.
8. Not stopping by the chapel everytime I arrive at school.

How could I have changed so much for the bad? I am so sorry to everyone I've offended these past few days. Pressure is NOT an excuse and I will do better, I will keep trying. ^^

A Letter to the Lord

Lord God,
I know I'm being very weak when all you've shown me is kindness but I can't help but worry. Especially when working with others I feel like they lean on me when we should all lean on You. I admit that some of the good values you've blessed me with has changed ever since I've realized that some people might abuse what kindness You have shown. Lord, I really want to be strong and to be the kindest I can be. Lord show me that everything is going to be fine and help me see the good in everyone. Help me never to change the good parts of me that I sometimes lose sight of in times of stress, anger, impatience, paranoia and most of all during times of sadness. I will always look to You, Lord.

I love you always and forever.

Future Family

Hey it's me again and I finally got to catching up with this baby reality show I'm watching (I'm in 35/38 so push natin to!)

I keep realizing that a lot of the show's parents regret having their babies later in life. I keep feeling their disappointments just thinking of how much older they will be once their kids grow up to do their hobbies. I even cried together with the twins' dad that one episode. T_T

Also, this one pretty cutey patootie has some moments with her grandad. My sister never met ours and I never got to see them when I was already mature enough to know so I cried when those parts were showed, too.

I'm getting so emotional but I love realizing that even with all my doubts about dating and marriage and having kids that maybe I would want that happy family, too someday <3 p="">

Disappointments

I'm changing. But I'm not blaming anyone or anything. I'm just sad about losing the good stuff.

Realizing that:
People will salig, sa imo and not God, is the wrong kind of "trusting"
That saying "I will help you with that" may mean you have to do EVERYTHING
That I've been told of my nega. sides and I caouldn't change them as easily as I thought :(

On a side note, I want a tattoo. On my wrist. Of 2 words that mean a lot to me or of song lyrics. It's kind of a sin tho (hmm..)

(c) Google and Tumblr

Bookies, Goodreads

Some books that I loved so much:

The Five People You Meet in Heaven

Albom, Mitch

Who would be my 5? Would my heaven be the beach, too? Would I cry like I did after reading, knowing and feeling what the 5 most important people in my life had gone through because of me?

The Summer I Turned Pretty(Summer, #1)

Han, Jenny

So many memories with my sister after reading this book. We even named our teddy bear, Bearemiah ;))

If You Could See Me Now

Ahern, Cecelia

Such a unique story! I loved the book so much. I think I read this one the fastest.

Why We Broke Up

Handler, Daniel

All my heart's pieces just broke. I cried so much. I felt like I was the girl who hopelessly and blindly followed my heart and it just led me to the wrong direction.

Maybe Someday

Hoover, Colleen

A book with heart and a soundtrack to boot! I love the empathy it gave out and of course, the hard work of both the author and the musician, BRAVO!

Breathe, Annie, Breathe

Kenneally, Miranda

I never thought I'd say this but, I struggle with the same teen problems as the books of this series. Temptations, curiosity and everything in between made me realize that no, I am so not alone!

Judging A Song by Its Title

"Please Don't Say You Love Me" by Gabrielle Aplin ♫

1st reaction: How superficial and feelingera can this person get by saying this to someone. It could really hurt a person.. blah, blah.

After listening carefully: Wow, the lyrics are so wonderfully said. Finally I understood the message, that sometimes  love is so rushed that we can't pause it. We live in the very moment when we love, fall in love or are loving. "I might not say it back." She didn't mean it the way a person usually does. She just means that she can fall for the guys and maybe she is starting to fall but she's not sure if its love.. yet.

Just some random thoughts :)

BUCKET LIST CHECK!

LORD GOD THANK YOU FOR ALL THIS WOULD NEVER BE POSSIBLE WITHOUT YOU!

Fireflies, played my first evah game of b-ball, got carried around (lol sorry sa heavyweight champness of mine) @ JMA-BOLTS in Bukidnon

K-Pop feelingera by cooking gogi :3

Last summer while going to Puerto to train our Stitches & Knots laborers, I GOT TO FINALLY SEE MACAHALAR BAAAAAAAAAY! SO awesooome. And that was while riding a motorcycle/ habalhabal. *bow*

In current time (CHAR hangover sa Finance yesterday, Present Value), its August and so far I've visited 2 infinity pools and saw the best ever view of the Cagayan River. Booyah!

LKKS Luxe Hotel

Stargate Dream Vacay Resort

Medj Overwhelmed

GUSTO KO MUHILAK!! :((

Lord, the road's just been too long but I hope I can hold on. It's so hard and I just got a lot on my mind pero thank you Lord na I'm here, still here and still great! :)

My dream's just within my reach najud! HAPIT NA LORD! Na-realize lang nako na dili nako ma-explain this feeling na happy/sad/bothered/angry.tired/heartbroken/ ETC. !!

LONG LIVE MY DREAMS! #Okinawa #Japan HAPPINESS AND SUCCESS <3 god="" lord="" p="" po="" salamat="">

A.D.T.O.Y.

Why, oh why. ^ All Day i Think Of You...

At 2PM (lol punpunpun). JK.

It's the times when you are left alone when you think of someone most. I never really got that. I mean I heard it and I kind of understood it but never really felt it.

Now I know. It's good coz you have that time to think but it just hurts so much sometime, ya know? :(

You just hope that person's thinking of you to kay na! Bes sakit. KAAYO.

Unfair

UNFAIR, IT'S SO UNFAIR THAT

People in MNL get to see Emi and Takeru and the cast of Samurai freakin' X huhuhu.

I cried coz I didn't get to see BB and other K-Pop acts and NOW I HAVE TO CRY ABOUT JAPAN, TOO!?!?! Not cool.

COOL JA NAI :((((

Gilas = Puso

I get so intense during b-ball seasons. I feel like my life is on the line. HAHAHA.

Let's all support Laree Fonasiyey (hahaha foreigners lol) and the PH team. I'm so so very excited najud! Even if we don't win any game AT ALL (OMG ka bad), the thrill was so worth it. Proud to say I didn't miss any of their FIBA Asia games <3 div="">

Diclaimer: Forgive me for any over-posting on social media. I just get too attached :)

All I Want is to be a Turtle

Whenever I see even just a glimpse of the water, I feel so happy!!!

I felt so satisfied these past few days coz I saw some water in Laguindingan Airport while fetching some guests from Le Maste. I felt bad that I didn't enjoy riding past Opol so much coz it was so pretty but meh I was so tired. XD

Oh and I don't have any pics but driving past Macahalar Bay in a motorcycle, MUSIC VIDEO MOMENT! Hahaha.

An of course walking from XU and back and passing by Carmen Bridge, getting assigned for the House of Hope for our Religious Studies subject, I get to see the Cagayan River evertime I come in for duty. >w<

Then walking with my parents at the bridge every morning last summer (even with all the usok and traffic, I had some music video moments).

SOOO NOW. I am so going to Okinawa, no doubt about it! Lord, may you help me coz I am so excited for Japan. Soon, soon, hopefully sooooooooooon!

My Branding is HAPPY

I saw this on Pinterest and I just wanted to share it :)

And then here's my official signature (lol)

This is the signature I made since I was in Grade 3 and I just realized how well it fit with the image I want to give out, HAPPY. I just wanna thank God again for another blessing. It may seem like a small thing but it made me feel secure coz people have been telling me I've been "too happy." But now I know that God made me a happy person from the very start and I should share that with the world. ^__________^

"Is it the same for you?"

You know how when you like a guys and then you hate this one tiny thing about him and it puts you off?

Well I love this band, The 1975. Every song's lyrics are just made so good, it speaks so much about how a teen/young gens. feel about getting high (not necessarily drugs, tho Matty says so); about love (not so much sex) and about being in love, love, looove. My sister and I sing their songs on loop almost everyday even tho the lyrics are PG (oops). ♫

So there's one song and this one song is called Antichrist. Do you kind of get me now?

I have nothing against non-believers its just that I felt so sad listening to this song. It's Matthew who wrote it and he's the band's lead singer. If you listen to the lyrics, you can hear him questioning God and how impossible He is and the things He did.

The part where he sings, "Is it the same for you?" well I got myself wondering and realizing, too. I realized that I was a faithful and a Church-goer but I question God, too. I feel like the non-believers have it so much harder coz they don't even try to speak to God, they never reach out and pull their strength from him.

This one song didn't make me hate The 1975. It made me realize that people need some kind of assurance and with God we have faith. But they can't see that, God doesn't speak through human ways. He's different and I want so bad to give whatever I can and help spread God's Good News coz honestly without it, I would've given up a long time ago.

Lyla Tov

I will never forget the day I had my poem published.

Writing is one hobby that gets me so fulfilled and it just took one book to inspire me and immerse me into the lives of teen Israeli soldiers.

Chick-Lit? I say not! :) https://www.goodreads.com/series/42639-how-to-ruin

Realizations soon to be Real

Hello! It's been a while and I've been a busy Jilly so I'm glad I got some "inspiration" to write and share this. I'm really actually never thought about this before but.. I'm going to submit some photos I've taken and I actually really love taking pictures of nature.

You see, I have the worst camera ever which is my phone's low quality cam because I am really one of the most stingy/inot person on earth. A person told me once that maybe I should be a photographer but I  just laughed it off coz I could never, ever, ever afford a DSLR/very great Q cam. But I really do want to share how I felt when I saw the things I saw and places I visited so Imma share it with you guys :)))

This one was taken during one of my morning walks with my mom. I really did enjoy walking but I hated the raffic and usok-usok that came with it :/ This shot was so different from those smoke belching cars X)

Never thought I would but these shots were taken when I went to Malitbog, Bukidnon. AMAZING GOD KA TALAGA LORD! Wala jud ko nagdahom na maka-adto didto with my first org. na I felt so much belongingness, ang STREAMS (tho I didn't do much for them :( ). I was always asking myself, "When will I ever set foot in Bukidnon." and then boom! Been there, experienced that. It was for free, too and I met such great, committed friends.

I don't remember when this was coz I was just too happy to cross off "Flying my own lantern" off my bucket list. :) HAPPY LANG

This was shot in Puerto where our company went to teach our potential laborers for our friendship bracelets. I was so shocked that such an amazing kubo could be built and I felt so bad it was so far from the city and that people couldn't see its beauty for themselves. The view of Macahalar Bay? AWESOME. Just, breathtaking. Habal-habal is the way to go! :)