"Is it the same for you?"

You know how when you like a guys and then you hate this one tiny thing about him and it puts you off?

Well I love this band, The 1975. Every song's lyrics are just made so good, it speaks so much about how a teen/young gens. feel about getting high (not necessarily drugs, tho Matty says so); about love (not so much sex) and about being in love, love, looove. My sister and I sing their songs on loop almost everyday even tho the lyrics are PG (oops). ♫

So there's one song and this one song is called Antichrist. Do you kind of get me now?

I have nothing against non-believers its just that I felt so sad listening to this song. It's Matthew who wrote it and he's the band's lead singer. If you listen to the lyrics, you can hear him questioning God and how impossible He is and the things He did.

The part where he sings, "Is it the same for you?" well I got myself wondering and realizing, too. I realized that I was a faithful and a Church-goer but I question God, too. I feel like the non-believers have it so much harder coz they don't even try to speak to God, they never reach out and pull their strength from him.

This one song didn't make me hate The 1975. It made me realize that people need some kind of assurance and with God we have faith. But they can't see that, God doesn't speak through human ways. He's different and I want so bad to give whatever I can and help spread God's Good News coz honestly without it, I would've given up a long time ago.

Lyla Tov

I will never forget the day I had my poem published.

Writing is one hobby that gets me so fulfilled and it just took one book to inspire me and immerse me into the lives of teen Israeli soldiers.

Chick-Lit? I say not! :) https://www.goodreads.com/series/42639-how-to-ruin

Realizations soon to be Real

Hello! It's been a while and I've been a busy Jilly so I'm glad I got some "inspiration" to write and share this. I'm really actually never thought about this before but.. I'm going to submit some photos I've taken and I actually really love taking pictures of nature.

You see, I have the worst camera ever which is my phone's low quality cam because I am really one of the most stingy/inot person on earth. A person told me once that maybe I should be a photographer but I  just laughed it off coz I could never, ever, ever afford a DSLR/very great Q cam. But I really do want to share how I felt when I saw the things I saw and places I visited so Imma share it with you guys :)))

This one was taken during one of my morning walks with my mom. I really did enjoy walking but I hated the raffic and usok-usok that came with it :/ This shot was so different from those smoke belching cars X)

Never thought I would but these shots were taken when I went to Malitbog, Bukidnon. AMAZING GOD KA TALAGA LORD! Wala jud ko nagdahom na maka-adto didto with my first org. na I felt so much belongingness, ang STREAMS (tho I didn't do much for them :( ). I was always asking myself, "When will I ever set foot in Bukidnon." and then boom! Been there, experienced that. It was for free, too and I met such great, committed friends.

I don't remember when this was coz I was just too happy to cross off "Flying my own lantern" off my bucket list. :) HAPPY LANG

This was shot in Puerto where our company went to teach our potential laborers for our friendship bracelets. I was so shocked that such an amazing kubo could be built and I felt so bad it was so far from the city and that people couldn't see its beauty for themselves. The view of Macahalar Bay? AWESOME. Just, breathtaking. Habal-habal is the way to go! :)

HIMYM: How I Met Your Mother, How She Died and I Ended Up With Your Aunt Robin

Or "How To Ruin 9 Years of Character Development in 40 Minutes"

I know many of the fans felt so bamboozled with the ending and I felt torn. It was reality: people get divorced, don't get to have their dream jobs and be happy, people move on and die . WOW. But with how the show painted the cast, the surroundings, I was SO expecting a happy ending. And I really hope so since Time mag tells us of possibilities of an alternate ending. A HAPPY one at that. Hallelujah! -->
http://time.com/50456/how-i-met-your-mother-happy-ending/

" Chasing dreams, man it's harder than it seems..."

Best. Dream. Ever.

I have been obsessing ever since they came to the Philippines (Manila to be exact, sucky but true) and finally I got my wish.

There were only a few people watching the 1975 play their first song (titled --in my dream-- My Confessions, Over My Head, Cable Cars by the Fray Illicit Remix: Don't bother asking me why coz it sounded like Pop Goes Rock haha) and I was there front & center with my sis. GAAAAAAAAAAH! I remember feeling all sad asking why no one was watching the most awesomest band I know but I was so happy to have them to myself (and the few others with me). They then played an acoustic version of Settle Down (which sounded like a cover I downloaded from Youtube) and then finally it was them playing their most emotional song --- Sex. AND THEN MATTY WAS BESIDE ME GIVING ME A SIDE SMILE AND SHY WAVE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHH.

So that's how I had the best dream ever and woke up. <3 p="">

From Blank to Filled Pages

It's March going on April and who can believe time has passed us by so very fast?

I'm missing out on a lot. The 1975, 2NE1 AON, MAMA in the PH (possibly), summer, summer jobs, etc. All I can do is wait for my graduation day & I can (probably) take on the world!!!

I'm realizing a lot of things, too. Family is the main focus of my realizations as I am currently watching "The Return of Superman" (ep. 9 and it makes me think twice about having babies -- yes, yes, not now but in the future -_-)

I cannot express all that I'm feeling and I have felt this first quarter of 2014 but I hope you can grasp at least an ounce of it through this blog post (I know I'm being lazy)

PS I have my own wall to post my Bigbang, anime, etc. stuff now but its honestly too small to post all my stuff so I hope I'll be happy, successful, buying my own house soon enough (lol maybe not quite soon) and I really wanna get thinner & pretty but I'm happy like this :)) (except for the times ppl mention my fatness, which isn't so obvious at all -- duh I'm being sarcastic)

That's all for now! ~

Turn that Frown Upside ":D"own

HAPPY 2014!!!

God has been giving or country some tough trials, I know. But bilib jud ko sa Pinoy, we are ever-faithful. :D
I admit my family was not as lively this Christmas. We didn't put up any decors or lights. We didn't put up our Christmas tree. I decided to respect my mom's decision. We went through a hard time with Sendong. Still, we went to mass and celebrated. I felt really bad about that one little detail, though. I kinda felt guilty. I hope (and know) He'll understand.
Just this week, (yesterday, to be exact) while the storm was a'ragin', our classes weren't suspended & I heard some teachers talking about how their salary would be deducted if they didn't have class. I really was offended. While I received frantic texts from my family, they could care less. If I didn't have an exam scheduled that day (which got cancelled, shame) I wouldn't have gone to school and helped in packing clothes and putting things up the higher place (my parents can't carry heavy stuff, but they did 'coz I was at school, go figure). Then again, the Lord kept us safe from flood waters.
How ironic that I love the beach, the sea and the sun, the sound of water flowing so much but I'd never, ever love the flood that they cause.

On the lighter side, I was so busy this year keeping up with K-Pop year-end shows and streaming as well as awards season for Hollywood (Yay, Grammy's on Monday!)
And you know what, my poems are going to be published!! YAY!! I hope I win that writing contest, too. :))) I never even thought I'd get qualified. The Lord is giving me another energy-booster. :DD

There's so much to look forward to, so much to be grateful about. Lord, I am so sorry for being gloomy and nega (especially with exams) and thank you so much for always being there and keeping me strong! <3 p="">